Monday, May 2, 2011

9 hours left

First off I never thought I would get to say that! Tomorrow is the day! We are scheduled to be there at 5:30am and they should be here some time around 8:00am. I want to thank everyone for your prayers, support and love throughout the journey, and though this is not the end and simply a new chapter we are so thankful!

Whats it like at out house tonight.....hmmmm well for about an hour after I got hom from dinner/work I walked around my house, yep for a full hour I could not figure out what to do and I could not wrap my head around it all. Bags are packed house is pretty I forgetting something???

I have cried tears of joy tonight just so thankful that tomorrow I get to be a mom again! Tears of sadness last time I did this I had my Luke and I know he will be watching every moment with us....he is a reason I get Tatum and Westin. I cry for my puppies, man they have no idea what is coming in the next couple of days... they have been my babies for 4 years, culture shock for them right? The simple thoughts of next time I do ....(fill in the blank)....I will have babies! I will get to celebrate mother's day this year....I did last year in a sense but I get to hold and love on my babies, my little miracles....well I guess "our" Thaddeus is included somewhere in all of this right ? ;)

Then I cry in awe and gratefulness for Jenni. My very best friend is having babies for me and my husband many people get to say that. How many people get to take the tragedy of a loss and turn it into the most amazing miracle and blessing in the world. Jenni, though you will read my note to you tomorrow thank you, Thaddeus and I love you so much!!

I will leave it on this note. On Sunday as Thaddeus and I were having our last lunch as not having kids  after church we were sitting next to a couple at Newks. They were talking about how the Loss or death of a child can ruin a marriage....Thaddeus and I looked at each other smiled and both agreed that we totally disagree with that statement. Our love and marriage is stronger then I could have ever imagined because of the loss of Luke.

Please pray for tomorrow, pray for sleep for all of us tonight, a smooth csection for Jenni tomorrow, and healthy babies!!

Thank you Lord for our journey, our story, our loss that turned into a blessing. I am so very thankful for each step of our journey!! Will post updates later!!!