This is what it means to be held...

So today we had our suppression and linen check along with our labs.

Our report from our nurse is below:

Kristin: You will be starting 150 units of Gonal F and 2 powder vials of Menopur (to 1 cc of water) on Saturday. Please remember to drop your Lupron dose to 5 units as well. I will need to see you back in the office on Monday at 7:30 am for blood work.

Jenni: Your estrogen today is 69.6. Lining is awesome! So you will need to increase to 4 patches. I will see you back in the office on Tuesday at 7:30am.

I had no cysts on my ovaries and my linen was teeny tiny like it should be. Jenni's linen was plushy like a pillow how it should be :)

We were heading to the appointment today and had an AMAZING God moment. We were running about 10 minutes late and listening to KSBJ. I of course was nervous. Anytime I go to HIVF or the OB I associate it with finding out something is wrong.... since when I went in with my appointment with Luke just a normal appointment it turned so bad so fast.

As we are about to exit the song "Held" comes on. If you listen to KSBJ and have ever encountered a loss this song is sure to make you cry every time. But the song's lyrics have gotten me through so much of my journey. As I was crying in the car and Jenni and I were in awe of the God moment. God was just reassuring me that He is walking with me every step of the way. To remember to rely on Him and trust Him. I got to the chorus and really started listening to words and God just revealed to me that He hand picked me and Thaddeus to walk this walk and placed Jenni in our lives. God picked US! To live out this AMAZING story, how amazingly blessed are we for Him to use Luke and that journey to bless us with surrogacy and the amount of people we have touched from just following God's plan. We have received so many emails and messages of support from so many people that it is just the most amazing overwhelming feeling of knowing that we are doing exactly what God has called us to do. Thank you to everyone who has sent us an encouraging message, text, email and for your prayers....they are getting us through every step of the way and we are very grateful for all of it

So if we would not have been 10 minutes late today I would not of had that moment when I needed it. Isn't it amazing how His timing is perfect.

Please continue to pray for us, I start more intense meds on Saturday and Jenni will increase her patches & for the husbands, though their part is small they sure do put up with our hormones well.

Below is the lyrics to Held....a song that has touched my heart and made this journey more understandable.

-Kristin

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We're asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it's unfair


This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow


This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
We'd be held

This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

This is what it means to be held.....